Life's been.. complicating the past few days.
I've been able to see another side of it. I want to be who I am. I want to do the things I used to do which I don't anymore. I miss just.. being a kid a guess. No strings attached.
It's not that I don't appreciate or, am not happy with what I have. It's just that what i have is holding me down. I don't like having to explain why to myself. I don't like having to beat myself up over something that is actually nothing. Can't wait to go get that
Break from reality.
Sometimes the thoughts in my head just go round and round for days. Honestly, I am sick of it.
Caring and thinking of what will be of me? Of the rest of the world? It's kinda tiring.
My every move depends on the consideration of those around me. I just want to do something out of the sake of myself. Is that really so hard for the world to understand sometimes?
I want to get close to nature.
Some things you would Never understand.
Sylvia